God, Tommy wanted to just climb him and cling. "I didn't want to LEAVE you. Jesus, Ted. You weremywholeworld for two fucking years. I was FUCKED without you. I loved you. I STILL love you. I thought I was so fucked up, that you hated what they made us do and I just MISSED it because I had you there and once we were out, I didn't."

He drew a watery breath, still holding tight. "What about Billy? You were with him, that got fucked because of me and aliens. I don't know what I'm doing ... god, I missed you." Tommy breathed the last and gave in to what he wanted to do, pressing a brief but fierce kiss to Teddy's mouth.